I came upon this story today and it saddened me beyond words. A girl, who witnessed another stray cat being euthanized accompanied her story with the words below. It made me cry but my will to help the unwanted, stray, hurt cats got even stronger and firmer.
|One of the first 5 kittens we received this season, barely 3 weeks old|
"I blame you!
Because ... I was hit by a car when I was only one year old. As you know, I have not been castrated. My territory was getting bigger and bigger because of my following my hormones, I was forced to seek females ... When I smelled her attractive scent and heard her call in the mating season, I didn't care about anything I ever learned about the dangers in the environment. I was not able to think, I followed her scent and wasn't paying attention to the cars ...
Because ... I had kittens when I was an only 9 months old kitten myself. I was old enough to have male cats chase me all day, but still I was not ready for motherhood, because I was still a baby myself. The kittens were big and there were nine of them. I suffered tremendous pain while delivering them and I died in agony because one of them got stuck in the birth canal. The kittens that were born before him also died - because without me they could not survive ...
Because ... I am one of the unwanted kittens. My owners did not care for my mother, who was impregnated by her brother as they lived together. So I came into this world. But something was very wrong with me. I was deformed, my back spine was opened. The couple of hours that I lived it was pure agony and pain - I welcomed death as it was my salvation.
Because ... I am in the shelter from an early age. Nobody wants me, just because I am black and shy.I always hide when people come – I am so afraid of them. I once had a home and one day, I was tossed out and the doors never opened for me, regardless of how loud I cried. I was sad and angry and I might never trust people again because I am so miserable here at the shelter.
Because ... suddenly no one likes me – I got old and I am no longer a cute, small, playful cat. I wish for some peace and some cuddling time. I am no longer as healthy as I was before, I need medicine that I do not like to take. And this was too much work and too expensive, so I ended up in a shelter.
Because ... my brothers, sister and I were abandoned in a sealed box by the road on a cold evening. It was so terribly cold, and we were so hungry. We strongly cuddled together so that we would not be so cold anymore. And suddenly it stopped being so terrible - we fell asleep, and we never worke up again.
We blame you! Because we have to suffer because people don't care or don't care enough, because they unprotected candles and cooking stoves, because we fall from unsecured balconies or windows, because we are run over by cars ... Because we we die, due to human carelessness.
We blame you! Because some people are cruel beasts cause us so much pain and suffering ... Because you can beat us and do with us impossible things for fun, from boredom ...
Thank you! To all those who have made sure that we start to trust people again. All those weeks, months, years trying to gain our confidence that they cry from joy when we first let them pet us. To those, who invest love, compassion, time and money. To those, who take us away from the streets. To those, who care for us and give us food and warmth and who renounce to their sleep to save the youngest of us as we need to be fed every three hours. To those, who spend sleepless nights, because I do not feel well. You must never get tired of convincing the others about the importance for us to get castrated and sterilized! Please, never give up. In return we give you our love. We keep hoping that one day even the ignorant people become aware of all these and begin to act responsibly ...
(H. Schepers) "
(H. Schepers) "