I just realized I skipped November completely! It's not that I don't have the time to blog - I don't have the energy or the will to do pretty much anything. I tried to at least follow my fave blogs and leave a comment here or there just to "be present".
Life has been a mess these past 2 years and the Universe keeps being unkind to my family. I won't even go into details as this post would turn into a big complaint and I don't want to bring you and myself down. I will share this though: my only aunt is fighting terminal pancreatic cancer and I can't even begin to imagine what she must be going through. We (my parents and I) are her only family and in a way we are going through her ordeal as well. We are doing all we can to help her ... but she more then often makes it difficult to help her. Her illness returning really upset me because I had hoped we could finally take a deep breath and reinvent our lives. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?
After I recovered from my hyperthyroidism I vowed I would slow down. And I was quite successful in doing it: I "killed" my "to do" lists (and life is heaven without them!), I decluttered my home (makes it easier to clean), I concentrated on the task at hand and stopped feeling guilty if I preferred reading to ironing, I cut down the number of my pen pals (it was not easy but had to be done so I can enjoy the pen palling again), I took my time for everything that I did. That all ended with my the return of my aunt's illness. I am struggling to get back there where I felt more relaxed and more in control of my time. I am catching up on my mail, catching up on e-mails, on my blog... I don't know how long it will last... but at least I will not totally skip December, too :))